I’m feeling a certain sense of antipathy at the moment. When Huddersfield scored on Saturday, such was my nonchalance I thought I had been reborn a Parisian. I didn’t even remember that City were playing Derby the Tuesday before until 10pm that night (occasionally fate is kind).
Before the season started, my aim was for us to finish in the play-offs, win more games, score more goals and start rebuilding for the future. I didn’t particularly want to get promoted back into the Premiserable League.
You’d be hard-pushed to argue against the achievement of those goals.
But then we went top. And I realised that I’d never seen City as champions of any league.
Now, sitting 12 points off the top, there is next to zero chance of automatic promotion. 7th is far more likely than 1st. I am still considering taking 100-1 on us missing out on the play-offs that Sky Bet are offering.
We should stumble into the play-offs but I don’t fancy our chances at all. Brighton we can beat, Sheffield Wednesday would be a very tough challenge – Derby – well I don’t need to elaborate on why I don’t fancy our chances against them. If bookies were offering odds on Tom Ince knocking us out, I’d take it right now. Not in a literal sense.
It seems strange but I really don’t mind what happens from now until the end of the season. Winning is preferable but I’m not going to kick the nearest car door after 6 pints if Wolves beat us on Friday night.
Why is this?
I suspect that I am not unique in having this sense of antipathy.
It doesn’t feel as though there is this clammering within the fan base to be promoted. I doubt that I am the only one that isn’t especially keen on us losing 60% of our games next season in exchange for seeing Premier League greats such as Ronaldo, Messi, Gerrard, Neymar and Romario at the KC.
Middlesbrough and Sheffield Wednesday fans seem particularly keen on promotion – which makes sense given their time away from the top division. The argument I often hear within our fans is that we’ll lose our best players if we don’t get promoted. Any desire of promotion seems to be an avoidance of disaster as opposed to a desire to be playing the biggest clubs every Sunday/Monday.
Do the players want it? I’m sure they do. But really, really want it more than the players in the teams around us? If we did go up via the play-offs, do you imagine scenes replicating those from the players in 2008? Can you see Diame screaming his head off like Brady did in 2013? Will Elmo manage to become as blurred as he did back then?
How much does Bruce want it? He often seems confused as to why we are losing and continues to be linked to clubs. I am starting to lose my faith in Bruce. Just starting to.
Do the Allams want it? Sure, for their investment it would certainly be preferable. But they are now distant supporters, allegedly watching games from their sofa, similar to many fans who feel pushed out, except I doubt the Allams are constantly reloading the link and trying to find the hidden close buttons on the multitude of adverts.
I am finding it hard to truly care about the rest of the season. Win or lose, I care little. I doubt I’ll even be going to my local game – Reading away.
My Hull City antipathy has truly set in. Please tell me it will go away and we’ll have a glorious May 28th.